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About Me Member Painter littledormy20/Female/United States Recent Activity Deviant for 4 Years
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I feel destructive

Fri Apr 27, 2007, 6:57 PM
I want to tear everything down and just start over.
Particularly with my art. With this gallery.

I feel as if the communication gap between me and the rest of the world is more of a crevasse, the two parts being pulled further and further a part. It's so deceptive, I keep on thinking that I'm communicating, or understanding and out from under me the bottomless pit strikes again!
I long to portray what I see in a way that others can understand. To be an artist that I would admire. To make art that leaves me breathless and anguished just by looking at it. To be so much more than simply clever.

I cannot believe how long I have stood up for my fellow visual artists with out knowing that the criticisms they faced were fully justified. The lack of morality in creating visual concepts horrifies me. The lack of inspiration, the lack of simple interest in anything beyond color and shape. The self-centeredness and the cult of the gimmick.

I came to visual art wanting to tell stories. Always stories first. I want to create a tomorrow, a world that I want to be a part of. Everything is designed and I want to design it, to find my perfection, my niche and my people. I always had this concept that people thought in some sort of similar way. How was I supposed to know that the idea of animation being paintings brought to life was so alien? That the view of illustration as visual story telling so unique? How could I know having stories... that being a story teller, was strange?

I know I am not yet at the point where I can justifiably make these complaints. Not successful enough, not with enough work or even THE work to back me. But I plan to someday be, hope to someday be, in a position where I can say these things and it can be viewed as something more than just teenage anx.

  • Mood: Pirate
  • Watching: Dylan Moran

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Devious Info

  • Current Residence: Behind my minds eye
  • Interests: Animation, Film, Illustraition, World domination, Writing, Dreams
  • Favourite movie: Jan Svankmajer's Lunacy
  • Favourite band or musician: Tiger Lillies
  • Favourite genre of music: Alternative Freak Show Circus Cabaret
  • Favourite artist: Dave Mckean
  • Favourite poet or writer: Neil Gaiman
  • Favourite style of art: Narative Surrealism
  • Skin of choice: Blue
  • Favourite game: Mrs. Pac Man
  • Favourite cartoon character: Betty Boop
  • Personal Quote: Only fools quote others, and only egomaniacs quote themselves.
  • Tools of the Trade: Hands... atleast as long as they are attached

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Comments


:iconbandini:
A very interesting gallery.

And... Well... The Tiger Lillies, Dave McKean, Neil Gaiman, Surrealism... Very good taste too :)

Welcome to my DevWatch !
:iconnicksservantfiore:
O_O wow the expression and meaning in most of your gallery is so deep and thought-provoking. your paintings are absolutly beautiful with such detail and variety of shades. I love your work.

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:iconprayingforrain:
It's so lovely that you're on here. I haven't seen much of your work in a long time except for the stuff that was just around your house.

Are you going to be home around Thanksgiving? Or Christmas?

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:spidey: PrayingForRain :batman:
:iconlittledormy:
not for thanxgiving but I will be home in time for magic trees! I assume you will be around then also?

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We create because we were created.
We die to avoid stagnation.
:iconprayingforrain:
Yes, I will. I have to go to Oklahoma at some point but other than that I'll be home the whole time.

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Live. Dream. Forget.
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:spidey: PrayingForRain :batman:
:iconprayingforrain:
Hey you :hug:

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Live. Dream. Forget.
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:icongoodcitizen:
Your art and style are so gorgeous, unique, and surreal! I really love it... I hope you keep it up because I would love to see more. :heart:
:icondeathness72:
You're really building up your portfolio! It's good to see you're on here, too. How's life? What are you up to? Are you at Evergreen?

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Figaro Filth.
:iconlittledormy:
Meh, I don't like most of the work that's on here right now. I wish I had a scanner.

Your stuff looks amazing tho. You going into comic books/graphic novels? Your an incredible inker.

I'm in New York going to the School of Visual Arts. I am hoping to transfer next year tho. Perhaps to Evergreen or perhaps head up to Boston.

I don't like SVA, I feel like I'm constantly fighting to learn and you just shouldn't feel like that at a school.

I'm studying illustration. My pet project right now is a story called Dust Bunnies (a working title) its kind of a Neil Gaiman like childrens story. I want to get into mixed media, like Dave Mckean's work.

Other than that I've been making posters, props, set pieces, backdrops, for theater type things.

What about you?

What where and who for you?

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We create because we were created.
We die to avoid stagnation.
:icondeathness72:
Why did I think you were at Evergreen? Terri said you were over in New York with Mike Ricca. My mind is leaving me slowly...

Anyway, what you mentioned about SVA is about exactly what Cornish felt like. I hated that school. I'm not there anymore. I'm in the Navy now, drawing when I've got a free moment, painting when I have several free moments.

Set design stuff? That's really cool. I have an interest in becoming a spare body part sculptor for films. Like in Reqium for a Dream with Jared Letto's arm. Yeah. That would be the coolest job.

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Figaro Filth.

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